my rendition

nyte cycling

2009-06-28T03:23:00.001+08:00

nyte cycling wif d peeps was gr8. muahahaha.. facebook..

2009-06-22T22:30:00.001+08:00

im reactivating my facebook. waha.

2009-06-17T17:32:00.002+08:00

if u fail to plan, u PLAN TO FAIL.

we must beat the the odds of life and get even.

BODY LANGUAGE

2009-06-17T17:20:00.009+08:00

BODY LANGUAGE

A woman gets on a city bus.
She looks at the driver
and holds up one hand;
the driver holds up two hands.

Next, the woman points up;
the driver points down.
Then, the woman grabs her breast;
the driver grabs his crotch.

Finally, the woman grabs her butt
and gets off the bus.

A curious passenger asked the bus driver
what the odd motions were all about.

The driver explained,
"The woman is a deaf-mute.
She asked me if a busride is five cents,
and I told her it was ten cents.

Next, she asked if the bus was going uptown,
and I told her it wasgoing downtown.

Then, she asked if the bus was going
pass the milk-farm, and I told her it was
going pass the ball-park."

The passenger interjected,
"Okay, but why did she grab her
butt as she left the bus?"

The driver continued, she replied
"Oh shit, I'm on the wrong bus!"

Cathay Pacific

2009-06-16T10:26:00.002+08:00

QUOTING - Cathay Pacific - Skytrax Airline of the Year 2009

"What we really loved about your airline was how you held our son's hand every step of the way."

How great if my love can adopt tat...

hugs for chocolate lovers

2009-06-14T10:24:00.006+08:00

HUGS FOR CHOCOLATE LOVERS...

the purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fears for newer and richer experiences.

it is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all.

kindness is more than deeds. it is an attitude, an expression, a look, a touch. it is anything that lifts another person.

a true chocolate lover finds ways to accomodate his passion and make it work with his lifestyle.

onli when u experience love, can u experience life to the fullest.

always serve too much hot-fudge sauce on hot-fudge sundaes. it makes people overjoyed and puts them in your debt.

all love is sweet, given or returned.

in the sweetness of friendship, let there be laughter and sharing of pleasures.

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thank you for giving me continuous opportunities to get to know you better, for making space for me in your heart and for loving me unconditionally.

2009-06-05T15:30:00.001+08:00

e-learning packages..

long boring process.. important.. but draggy...

24 may 09

2009-05-24T22:27:00.003+08:00

great busy weekend.

friday dinner with masyi and syura.

saturday nite explorer with svps peeps. love them all.
shariffa, fahmy, isa, gf, azmil, shariffa's sis, bf, wana, me, azri.

everything's great except for the last part.
swerved car. uncle's car.
n a logical plot that was put in place.

always expect the unexpected.

sunday morning cycle with bbfs peeps at ecp.

there's this qoute somewhere in the park.

the bend in a race is not the end of the race.

worthwhile weekend.

2009-04-24T15:11:00.001+08:00

seeing with your heart isnt always enuf. you have to use your heart.

2009-04-24T02:10:00.002+08:00

so near yet so far...

y did i let u get away with thinking tat its me gvg too much is d problem than u not gvg enuf?

no wonder u care more about d future future than ryte now...

how much more pathetic can i be to let others think they have a better idea about how to run my life better...

my mvp valentine

2009-04-19T15:14:00.001+08:00

my mvp valentine

my first ever non-malay series n my fav.

try it n u'l love it.

duan chen feng...!

2009-04-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

i fell off it. failed with some others. butt pain2 many2.heart pom pam pom pam.

lets try again.

Life & death

2009-04-02T13:53:00.001+08:00

Six punishments in this lifetime
Three while dying
Three in the grave & Three on the Day of Judgment.

THE SIX PUNISHMENTS OF LIFE :
1. Allah takes away blessings from his age (makes his life misfortunate)
2. Allah does not accept his plea (Dua's)
3. Allah erases the features of good people from his face.
4. He will be detested by all creatures on earth.
5. Allah does not reward him for his good deeds. (No thawab)
6. He will not be included in the Dua's of good people.

THE THREE PUNISHMENTS WHILE DYING :
1. He dies humiliated.
2. He dies hungry.
3. He dies thirsty. Even if he drinks the water of all seas he will still be thirsty.

THE THREE PUNISHMENTS IN THE GRAVE :
1. Allah tightens his grave until his chest ribs come over each other.
2. Allah pours on him fire with embers.
3. Allah sets on him a snake called 'the brave', 'the bold' which hits him from morning until afternoon for leaving Fajr prayer, from the afternoon until Asr for leaving Dhuhr prayer and so on.

With each strike he sinks 70 yards under the ground.

THE THREE PUNISHMENTS ON THE DAY OF JUDGMENT :
1. Allah sends who would accompany him to hell pulling him on the face.
2. Allah gives him an angry look that makes the flesh of his face fall down.
3. Allah judges him strictly and orders him to be thrown in hell.

menghilangkan kepenatan

2009-04-02T13:48:00.002+08:00

Apabila berbaring untuk tidur, bertasbihlah (Subhanallah) 33 kali, bertahmid (Alhamdulillah) 33 kali dan bertakbir (Allahuakbar) 33 kali.

needs

2009-03-29T20:21:00.003+08:00

i need...

a sturdy pillar of support to lean on.

the prince who turns into a frog... go watch... super nice...

"...someone made me realize the feeling of caring for someone and the happiness of doing something for her..."

"...i just want to work hard for the person i care about..."

"...tell me how i can stop u from influencing my life..."

"...how can i stop my mind from thinking about u..."

"...i really hate u... because u dont give me a chance to forget u..."

"...i need u by my side..."

"...true love cant be given up..."

2009-03-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

as long as u dont give up, desperation will become hope.

2009-03-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

wen there's no fuel, even if u have a wow car, u wont drive on.

wen there's no feel, even if u have love, u wont drive on.

above time, sometimes u'll get lucky, sometimes u just have to pass it.

love isnt d world.

focus

2009-03-25T22:33:00.001+08:00

FOCUS

"We do not have to know the victims to understand the anguish of a man who has lost a wife, a mother who lost her sons, a child who has been orphaned or a family still searching for missing members, hoping against hope that they are safe.

We all have our own families, and we know what our families mean to us."

- Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong, 9 January 2005

PISSED

2009-03-25T18:50:00.001+08:00

LAURA FROM PIZZA HUT LUCKY PLAZA REALLY GET ON MY NERVES.

IM SIMPLY PISSED!

the perfect square

2009-03-22T23:32:00.001+08:00

i might be perfect but not perfect for u.

Crazy signs

2009-03-19T20:13:00.003+08:00

.hkps malacca trip 14-15 march 2009.

.jonker street.

!crazy signs!

.THINGS NOT TO SAY TO UR BOYFREN.

Cant we just be frens?
I'm pregnant... Just kidding!
My last boyfren was a little BIGGER.
I betcha i can fart louder than u can!
I tell my mum EVERYTHING!
Y cant u be more sensitive?
Stop hanging out wif ur frens and spend more time wif me!
Would u mind of i see other people?
I've already picked out names for our children.
What's more important to u? ... ME or THE FOOTBALL?
U must carry ur cell phone so i can call u... ALL THE TIME!

faith, hope and love

2009-03-07T15:44:00.002+08:00

wen we put faith, hope n love together, we can raise a positive kid in a negative world.

if u love me, forgive me and never forget me.
then, i'll have peace even w/o u around.
coz u'll always be my first.

kurma

2009-02-23T20:28:00.002+08:00

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w

"Berilah makan buah kurma kepada isteri-isteri kamu yang hamil, kerana sekiranya wanita hamil itu memakan buah kurma, nescaya anak yang bakal dilahirkan itu menjadi anak yang penyabar, bersopan santun serta cerdas pemikirannya.”

cck park

2009-02-23T18:50:00.001+08:00

yesterday, me, azri, asyik, ira. cck. talk. debate. counsel.

me n azri felt reli good having one another. n we felt damn guilty feeling tat way.

pain

2009-02-03T19:45:00.002+08:00

pain is wat forces us to grow. n let us learn a great deal about love. d significant meaning n d special feeling it leaves us deep within. i loike it lots.

i DO NOT like to admit tat i MIGHT be wrong n he COULD be ryte somewhere. or vice-versa, of course! perhaps tats wat make us so special together.

dangerous minds

2009-01-18T19:16:00.001+08:00

dangerous minds.. great show.. watch it n be inspired..

clean n clear

2009-01-16T23:50:00.001+08:00

fairytales dont exist in this world.

fab weekend!

2009-01-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

gerek weekend.

yesterday, svps gathering. sentose. amirah's grill. azmil's n noris's burfday.

azmil. wana. noris. syafa. norami. liyana. liyanna. liana. liana's hubby, asmat. zul. faizliana. ibnu. asri. me.

today, M.A.N.Y gfs meet-up. masyi. asyura. nadia. yana. + noi. + khalil. + azri. + hakim.

murderer. boggle. heart attack. snap. khalil accidentally slipped my polar bear snap card. n got me new set of uno cards. haha. k best!

besok keje. argh. too short a weekend. govt should go for 4-day school. hehe.

i sayang u, awak.

double dumb

2008-12-25T18:20:00.005+08:00

danial and shasha got engaged today. finally. after 5 long years. good 4 them. alhamdulilah. insya'allah.

. love . love . love . love . love . love . love .

anw, saw him. i do still tremble. dnt ask y. we dnt make eye-contact. dnt talk. nothing. i dnt even have a good look at him. though i can feel his shadow giving me this evil hatrate stare. thank you. idiot.

i dono abt how others can do this but i cant. im fated not to have my exs as just friends. they either dnt acknowledge me, ignore me, or simply hate me. so be it.

funny stuff.

2 besties broken engagement.
a minute ago another bestie break-up disaster.

broken engagement in order to be friends and not ready? wats up wif d lame reason? y get engaged in d first place?

shit happens to great ladies wif double dumb guys.

let me repeat n reinforce.

good things u do, good things u will get.
shit u give, double shit will fall upon u.

so beware.

though, alhamudulilah.
i love u, awk.

wateva later will be dealt wif later.

peace

2008-12-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Make peace with your past, so it won't mess up the present.

2008-12-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

Mr Yes Man... u go boi...

dont wait for pain to believe in prayer.

dont wait to have time to be able to serve.

dont wait for anybody else's pain to ask for apologies...
...neither separation to make it up.

dont wait because u dono how long it will take.

dont wait for the fall to remember the advice.

dont wait to have a lot to share a bit.

dont wait to be lonely to recognise the value of a friend.

dont wait for the best job to begin to work.

dont wait for a smile to be nice.

a bike ride by d bro

2008-12-21T12:15:00.002+08:00

bro's got a bike. n i've got a ride. n im loving it.

2 besties. both were engaged. n d onli reason y they were and not are is because they deserve better. n i wana be there. i love u gfs. onli if u noe how much i do.

but knowledge of islam says, wateva good thoughts need not be told. just share them generously.

143

2008-12-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

ayah,

i love u. very much.

ibu.

walkie talkie

2008-12-03T18:42:00.003+08:00

i had an amazing nyte wif anaz on Monday. after dinner at aiman coffeeshop (next to al mukminin), we decided to have a short walk before heading home. d short walk turned into a walkaton as we strolled down d road, all d wy til my blk. how far was tat?! n throughout d journey, we talked n walked n talked n walked. he talked more than me! haha. gr8 time we had. nice. walkie talkie walkie talkie.

tis is wat happened in a long term r'ship. a hate love r'ship. hehe. swit kan. thx. haha.

cocky

2008-11-30T22:36:00.001+08:00

A farmer rears twenty-five young hens and one old cock. As he feels that the old cock could no longer handle his job efficiently, the farmer bought one young cock from the market.

Old cock to Young cock :'Welcome to join me, we will work together towards productivity.

Young cock : What you mean? As far as I know, you are old and should be retired.

Old cock : Young boy, there are twenty-five hens here, can't I help you with some?

Young cock : No! Not even one, all of them will be mine.

Old cock : In this case, I shall challenge you to a competition and if I win you shall allow me to have one hen and if I lose you will have all.

Young cock : O.K. What kind of competition?

Old cock : 50 meter run. From here to that tree. But due to my age, I hope you allow me to start off the first 10 meters.

Young cock : No problem ! We will compete tomorrow morning.

Confidently, the following morning, the Young cock allows the Old cock to start off and when the Old cock crosses the 10 meters mark the Young cock chases him with all his might. Soon enough, he was behind the Old cock back in a matter of seconds.

Suddenly, Bang! ...... before he could overtake the old cock, he was shot dead by the farmer, who cursed, 'Hell ! This is the fifth GAY chicken I've bought this week !'

d blindness of love

2008-11-30T11:53:00.002+08:00

u noe awk, nothing else in my life matters as much as u do. 4 good or for bad, im affected by u easily. every word u said to me, every promise u made me smile for. n for d every single one tat u kept, thanks and well-appreciated. d broken ones, promised to be kept til later but later have not come yet, those r d worst ones. d greatest disappaointments. no matter how small, to me every single one is as significant coz u promise so n i look forward to n yet, u made me lose trust. thank u.

n i begin to believe, d blindness of love.

too bad..

2008-11-29T16:11:00.002+08:00

The 3 tragedies in a man's life:

1- life sucks

2- job sucks

3- Wife does NOT!

A man is dying of cancer.

His son: 'Dad why you keep telling people you're dying of AIDS?'

Answer: 'So that when I die, no one will dare to suit your mother.'

John asks his grandpa:

'Do you still have sex with Granny?'

Grandpa says: 'Yes, but only Oral'.

John says: 'what is oral?'

Grandpa: 'I say F**k you, and she says:F**k you too'

disappointed sister

2008-11-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

hate it to be wif idiots. i despise this list of people.

idiots who NEVER feel guilty about doing wrong. too self-centred. too egoistic. irresponsible. so selfish. not once. not twice. countless. willing to do ANYTHING just to be self-satisfied. somehow no sense is worth up there in d lil brain of urs. even d heart is gone? im so disappointed in u bro.

we expect d least from u, n yet it's too much?

wen r u for once gona put us before u first without tinking of ur ASS all d time?

it has been years.. n im still expecting u to change bro. as long as u have a chance, seize it. before it's too late. then no one will be able to help u out.

u'll never noe when time will be up for u.

rest days...

2008-11-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

it has been a super tiring semester for me. n finally today is d last day. i can start enjoying my 'holiday' which includes helping out at lvcck. indeed, i need a break though im not sure whether it's a wise choice to 'rest' tis way. c how lor..

me

2008-11-19T00:28:00.001+08:00

insecurity kills d woman. how do i deal with this?

together

2008-11-17T06:56:00.002+08:00

the more we get together
together, together
the more we get together
the happier we'll be..

where there's rain,
there's the presence of rainbow

keep smiling, keep shining.

no worries.

FREAK!

2008-11-16T14:39:00.002+08:00

wats RELI d BIG PROBLEM wif doing something 4 others just d way we want others to do the things 4 us?

Could have save us so many problems and misunderstanding. Dont use these flaws and overturn them into positive reinforcements. Learning point is taken into account only once. People dont make mistakes REPEATEDLY. at least, if they are sincere enuf.

n thanking me for my understanding is good. but sometimes, u have to understand too tat im only human. though accompanied by a million sorries and thanks, i still need space to burst out.

thank you.

u got wat u wanted.

2008-10-30T17:15:00.003+08:00

A wife bought an enormous birthday present for her husband. He opened it and looked rather confused.

"What an i suppose to do with a rocket?"

"You wanted space,"she replied. "Now, get lost."

deepoliday

2008-10-20T16:24:00.004+08:00

tioman trip. 25-27 october 2008. yahoo.

ive calmed down.

2008-10-16T00:01:00.004+08:00

today, i feel much calmer. Alhamdulilah. boi has started msging me back. bro has managed to ease my confusion, show concern n share. n ive learnt several important points to take note n discover further down d road.

1. i have to learn to love myself first. after doing smtg, though it may not work out d way i wan it to be, appreciate n thank myself for efforts put in. at least, i noe ive done my very best n will have no regrets.

2. i have to learn to let go disappointments. no blaming on myself for d tings tat turn out differently. again, at least i have tried to make a difference.

3. i noe tis one. dont tink too much. y tink empty just to feel sorry for urself? no no no.. nope..

4. rainbow after d rain. believe tat it will happen. onli d best is meant for u.

5. appreciate own n others' personal space. others need to breathe. n so do i. i must learn to respect myself better.

learning points of d day. nlyn, please keep in mind. love n respect.

Life and Love

2008-10-14T19:03:00.004+08:00

Life and Love

· When you love, there's no such thing as loving a little, but loving all the way. Love may not ask you to give up your life, but it will require lots of sacrifices.

Definitely. But not many people see d point of sacrificing but expect so much out of love. Tgs dont work out tat way. U get as much as u give. God's fair, alright.

· Your first love is not always your truest love.

Perhaps so, but it is definitely a special chapter in life. u will never forget d moment of happiness. N somehow, it becomes a benchmark for me in love. I noe it may not be fair but tats how i do it.

· In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on.

Yeap. Whether u wana accept d tgs along d road, it's either sooner or later.

· When I saw how much pain love could bring I felt sorry for those in love, when I saw how much joy love could bring I envied those in love.

How nice to have tgs going our way at all times, but i guess d slopes of life r present as learning points n they are essential.

· Love can only be what you want it to be.

N if it's not how i want it to be, means it's not love?

· Hate is the only love that has missed it's way.

So, is there a chance of getting back on d right track? Or perhaps it's just not meant to be.

· For awhile I thought I would never love or hate anyone, but I have come to realize I have loved and hated the same person.

Ya Allah. Help is needed. If tis is reli happening, wat does it mean? How did i ever get into tis state? Perhaps, from too much tinking. Or maybe, it's fate. Good or bad?

Once you love, you cannot take it back, cannot undo it. What you felt may have changed, shifted slightly, yet still remains love.

Love will always be love.

· You were my strength when I was weak, you were my voice when I couldn't speak, you were my eyes when I couldn't see; you saw the best there was in me.

But all tis are in past tense! Why?!

Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards.

N tats where d tinking box comes in. D importance of a working brain.

Love may be magic, but remember, magic can also be an illusion.

So, love is an illusion?

Never love unless you can bear with all the faults of man.

I tried my very best but I cant bear with them! It's impossible clapping with a single hand, u noe. Wat do i do? Stay away from love?

Love is like a tree in the four seasons of change. It can either bloom or blossom into a warm, loving relationship, or it can slowly turn, fade, and die, and grow unbearably bitter and cold.

Tats why im thankful im in singapore. To avoid as many distractions.

No man is worth a woman's tears; the only one who is, will never make her cry.

No man.

d silent war

2008-10-12T21:31:00.002+08:00

i miss u more than ever.

thank u for taking d chance to prove me wrong. to teach me a good lesson about how words arent d greatest solution to any arguement. to show me tat tings dont go my way all d time. n to make me appreciate imperfect love.

is there gona be another opportunity?

d silent war continues. . . .

so sick..

2008-10-12T12:16:00.002+08:00

im so sick of love song, so tired of tears. so done wif wishing u r stil here.

leave me alone coz im reli sick of imperfect love. love wif more tears of sorrow than tears of joy. i dont want tis. i dont wan us tis way.

more perfect bf please

2008-10-12T00:57:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya 2008. it has been an extremely long period of time since i last blog. n suddenly today, i just need to release my uncontrollable temper here. a medium i have always favoured. bcoz i am d boss, d authority here.

life. love. sigh. countless happy moments. but now im in d confused state. why? why cant love just be perfect like how it's suppose to be? why r there so much confusion n sorrow but i just cant explain them?

im so insecure, too sensitive, an empty bottle. i tink too fast, too ahead, too much. no limit. no one can beat me in tis tinking game. nobody catch me in d run n calm me down. n my temper's horrible. wen im mad, words tat come out shoot d shit out of idiots. n these idiots just have d power to do or say someting on d bull's eye. made it worse n got more shitty shots from me. sometimes i feel so sori for them. sometimes they just deserve them.

idiots r so idiotic. they have a list of shitty personality n i cant tolerate them. ego-centric. selfish. ignorant. immature. fucking lazy. they have tis motto, 'Getiing d most by doing d least'. i strictly believe in meritocracy. so i have these kinda people. n once again, they are called idiots.

can i have a more perfect bf please? i dont care if u tink im asking for too much. im greedy. i just feel sori for myself so tats y.

another ting. i have a bad habit. a greatly horrible one. n i wana kick it. i tink too much. especially about d past. i noe time dont come back for us n i noe tat wats in d past means it's over. totally over. just tat i need to be reminded consistently.

Allah is d greatest. he will give us d best tat we deserve at d perfect moment. but sometimes i realise d tings i get may be great at a point of time but real no-no at another. n being someone who reads between d line all d time, i sometimes wonder which is reli for me n which r d list of tings arent meant for me for d future.

lesson learnt. never misjudge a straight road.

lasting love

2007-03-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

hepi days wif mr azri zulfadli. i just loike tat feeling. n is always in love wif him.

d pisces and d libra.

2007-03-15T12:32:00.001+08:00

March
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

Love Language

2007-03-15T11:36:00.002+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Acts of Service:		8
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		4
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

lasting. good.

2007-03-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

browsing frenster. guess wat i came across? a group pic. he and his gf. lasting. alhamdulilah. hepi for him. saw his brother d other day. he's good.

arena

2007-03-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

big major court. d arena. then ma called, talked and calmed me down. guess wat she said. she was reli on my side, even b4 listening to any part of d story. she said she knew her son too well. n if i wana leave him, i should coz she doesnt want me to suffer in my later days.

she cried wif me. n when i asked y she cried, she replied, "Bcoz i love u. i reli want u to be my daughter in law coz i love u so much, but bcoz i love u, n i dont want u to suffer." omg. how swit can tat be. but at tat pt of time, i was just gona defend him, saying it's part n parcel of being in a r'ship. arguements n disagreements. tensions n bubbles.

wats d ending? im damn so tired. hehe.

pig shit

2007-03-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

there's a glimmer of light, even when ur world is in darkness.

where's d truth n logic in tis saying? depending on hope tat is just merely hope.

no.

2007-03-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

i dont wana live on in tears. my heart is too tired awk. pls spare me. if u love me.

save me

2007-03-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

i came to hate tis part of my life. fin skul, finding work. a decent paid job tat enable me to survive my current state of living. oh dear govt, pls do smtg abt childcare teachers' salary. we r human beings too, alright.

can he be d ryte one if u feel tat he doesnt understand most of u? or he understand but simply too tired to care n bother?

be my shadow if u tink its a pleasure being one. but for once, i HATE d damn shit idea. repeated disappointment.

u noe i love him so much n i noe how much he loves me. but so tings r too hurtful. but u do wat u got to do.

u swallow then. n swallow them. n swallow them.

tats ya.

2007-02-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

u never reli stop loving someone. u just learn to try to live without them...

lost once again

2006-12-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

suddenly, once again, i feel lost. so lost.

lost interest in skul. since aceh n since fee is dued n i bo $ to pay up.

n also, somehow love is different once again.

i noe i love him. so much n much more. but somehow it's just different. he made it different.
Ya Allah. i deserve wat i get n how i feel ryte deep down there. for not being able to carry out wat u entrust me in. im so sorry. sorry for myself. but im just dumb.

but still, i wouldnt let him go. til d moment i feel he's not meant for me, then i'll fly. for now, i feel he is. for me.

as fajar read when reading my palm, once upon a time, i had a true love. we made our path through n we had plans. but we decided to let each other go coz we noe we r not meant for each other. d true love i have now is d one tats fated for me. hopefully it's anaz. i wana spend d rest of my life wif him. coz i noe he'll take care of me n will love me always.

n as for d missed love, u'll always b in me. u may forget me, but i will never forget u. someone who reads me well enuf to once upon a time love me. thanx. wherever u may b, take care.

u made me wat i m today. i appreciate tat. alhamdulilah.

bitter batter better

2006-12-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

things r getting better.

n i should always believe tat at d end of d rainy day is d existence of a rainbow.

god is always there for u. nawaitu. n insya'allah, HE will hear ur prayers.

lost soul

2006-12-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

i wish i could tell u how much i love u.

i stand strong coz i felt u in me. u r my pillar of strength.
i cry coz i noe u will be there to wipe my tears.
i dare swim in d open ocean coz i noe u will never let me drown.
i stay true to u coz i noe there's no one else i wana be wif.
u r d one for me. n i trust tat u r true to me.

now, im lost for words.
wat m i reli to u?
m i d ryte one for u?

i love u so much but y is my heart suffering n breaking into pieces?

ive chosen u n ive not looked back. but y r u playing a trick on me?

no hope

2006-12-19T00:47:00.000+08:00

back here in spore. but dnt feel like coming back to my life though. d path of my love life is getting tougher n i dont tink im left wif much strength and courage to continue hoping. hope is just hope. dono wat i should do. like always, in everything, im a lost soul. n d person i hope could keep me together is doing exactly d ting to break me apart. cant take it animore. whr r u? my pillar of hope n strength has turned into d strong tsunami wave tt is keeping me barely alive.

i'll b a dead soul soon.

dari iskandar

2006-12-19T00:45:00.000+08:00

im back here from aceh. iskandar wrote tis for me.

SENyUM–MU

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Terluka dan terjepit dalam tindakan yang dianggap terlalu..
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keringatku…
lukaku…
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Buat Liyana..
Dari LOSER….di Meulaboh!!!

kenangan terindah...

2006-12-03T12:05:00.000+08:00

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku
Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu...
Kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku...
Kau lah cinta sejati

Ooh...

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Ooh...

mentor's tea party

2006-12-03T11:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday, was a gr8 saturday.

i attended the mentor's tea party at rchid country ckub. grand! n guess wat? i was awarded the 'BEST BIG SISTER'. then kak fiza brought me to meet up with cikgu naha (zaima's teacher) and he thanked me n all. he said zaima had improved and bla bla bla... omg! i was so touched ar. n i dont tink i deserve such appreciation coz i just did wat i have done for the sake of humility n the nature of having fun n satisfaction. hehe. anw, they also interviewed me up. n then, i got some msgs at nite saying tat i appeared on tv berita 8pm. so paisey la... haha... my malay da lah berterabur...

anw, me n ab won the 'big sis & bro' award but too bad, he didnt attend yesterday's fuction as he had to attend a job training. boo hoo...

after tat, i hang out wif ema n basithah(my newly made fren. she got the award for 'best big sister award too. but mine was for secondary mentee. hers was for primary mentee) we sat ard at northpoint mc n chatted away. fun. then we left n i met up wif anaz n we headed to vivo city to meet my family. i had a wonderful time.

now, im packing my stuff for my aceh trip. haiz... so boring.... zzzzz....

9:56

2006-11-26T08:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday was gr8. 9:56 was smooth n terrifying.

others than me

2006-11-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

i noe ive always been a gd fren to others. but sometimes, i feel tat people tend to overlook d values and beliefs about wat true friendship really means. is friendship just a drop by stations where u look for them when u have a problem or something crops up? hMm...i dono. i dont see it tat way but sometimes i feel lousy about being in such friendship. haha. ive always being so caring n concern about me. but all they do think is about themselves. but i guess n i noe not everyone's like tat..

awn, friendship reminded me of my pri sch crush. ive got tis crush at tis guy for a couple of years. pri 2-4 i tink. haha. n then tat day we went out jalan raye together n we kinda keep in touch. tat nite he told me tat he kinda like me but too bad, coz im already attached. haha. kinda cute tinking abt him. luckily we were comfortable abt it n we talked a couple of times. haha. but now he selenge la. haha.

nra makes me puke somehow. i dono y. d frenship seems disappearing. n guess wat. i dont really care n bother animore. she makes me tink tat way.

life has not yet ending. i noe i can still count on some true friends, ups n downs. i noe its not tat we dont care about d friendship. but we r just too bz. deep down, we still believe in tat true friendship we share.

i noe tat

2006-11-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

i noe i love him. but just wana be away from him. maybe im being selfish n unreasonable. but i cant please ppl all d time. i need my needs. i need to be alone.

ystrday, i had a nitemare. a never-ending nitemare about d bermuda triangle love story. how funny d 3 of us were in d nitemare. n how funny how i was being twisted in d storyline. maybe it's a sign. maybe it's just testing n challenging my emotional status. how terrifying n adventurous. like d csi.

skul ended early today n i had no other committments. i didnt wana go home. i went to meet up eliz. she brought her gal along, nandini. how cute n smart d little gal was. i went over to her house for a chit chat. after tat, i met up wif ab who kept me company for a while, knowing tat i didnt wana go hm tat early. he was a good companionship. i felt comfortable wif him n had treated him like an older brother. ive always wanted a brother.

i wana be gone...

2006-11-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

lost of words
clashed of minds
robbed of soul

i just wana distant myself away from u.
at least for a while.

chocolate sunday

2006-11-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

went out early morning to meet up abdillah n nora. taking d same train to mdis for mentor's training. luckily, ab gave me a wake up kol. if not, i would definately be late. haha. talking about dearest khaliff on the way. wats new ryte. haha. anw, d course was boring. haha. klah, i guess i was very sleepy la. anw, made some new frens. SUFIAH. her face resembles farhanah sey. haha. btol. ish. haha. nice talking to her. and also hajar. haha. we gossiped about khaliff during d interactive discussion. gd opportunity wat. kate strength rapport n bond. hhahaha. then, actually i was supposed to follow thm jalan raye but i didnt coz not feeling well. in d late evening, they drop by my house. khaliff, saadah, aqilah, rafidah. yup. him. n it was hilarious la. he clicked wif my parents n bro n sis very well. haha.. mepek ar dier. mentioning bakal mertua. bluek...! haha then we headed to hajar's house. okie ar. i clicked wif d gals really well. they commented tat they were very surprised tat i was very friendly n easy-going. again, like others, they tot i was d sombong type. haha. yup. dont judge me.

anaz called me up just now. didnt wana jumpe la coz tired. but then at wdlds, dier meet rab jap. ape sey... haish... dono wat to say abt how i feel... 7 hari tak jumpe, tapi orng lain dapat jumpe lepak2 ngan dier dulu... aku tau la rab blood aku... but still... alah... small hundred pieces...

svps drift

2006-11-12T00:44:00.000+08:00

tadi jalan raye ngan budak2 svps...best giler...naik cars...

projects and them sucks

2006-11-10T13:30:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it sucks having such unfocused and slack and dont-care groupmates. it's ****ing irritating. n i predicted tat projects will suck as well. we r close friends and i noe of their potential and abilities but they tend to overlook stuff and dont really care much. wats d point of having a positive and enthusiastic attitude when u have such lousy groupmates who ignores how u exactly feel. i noe their needs. they need to smoke. but cannot later izzit. more inportant that projects? cant die or wat? not tat i love doing projects. i really dont. but i love getting started and get over it and done wif asap. then i can enjoy doing wat i wana do. mama seemed so focused when she's wif me. she even became more motivated than me myself. it was just tis morning tat she showed tat positive attitude to me but then, after meeting nin n yana, she got distracted. haha. expected. i shouldnt have been to hopeful. they will be they. not tat we have a problem wif each other. in fact, we glued really well and i guess tats y we survived through all these 3 years, doing last min projects together and 'individual' parts of d projects. so much for a mproper group discussion. im tired. of their attitude. i have my life too.

bored

2006-11-08T13:21:00.000+08:00

firstly, i wana ban air-corn. it gives me such a bad headache.aching like anything. killing me. n cramping my braincells.

in d skul library doing nothing. having break till 2.30pm. so bored. d rest went out to eat. i didnt go along coz i wasnt in d mood. missing anaz who's still in brunei, during his training. life has been moderately good so far. just had lunch wif ida just now. i love hanging out wif my galfrens, catching out old times. i've always believe truly in d importance of friendship.

projects have been coming non stop. but since i have such a slack n unmotivated group members, i cant do much but to slack too. haha. i noe. merely reasons.

im bored. n im cranky. n when i m being cranky, i utter rubbish.

anaz missy

2006-11-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

he went brunei. gona miss him.

he's gone. dono where. should i care?

2006-10-16T14:08:00.000+08:00

sat. unfortunately, i had to attend course at d zoo. such a drag. 9am to 5pm. i woke up late n had to hail a cab. but d day was orite. then, i met up wif azri n we headed paya lebar. yup. we shopped for our baju. brown. got it. but most of all, i never felt so hepi for quite some time unti then. i guess we reli closen up tat day. i love him so deep much.

hating u...

2006-10-13T11:34:00.000+08:00

never in my 19 years of living have i ever hated anyone. until now. im starting to feel d gradual growth of hatrate towards my brother. n i hate d feeling of having to hate him. but he's just a loser. a miserable, terrible n gr8est loser i ever come across in my entire life frame.

n d other two r equally shallow-minded n selfish. purely spoilt-brats. n im tired of taking extra responsibility. esp if it's not working. they make me puke.

anaz. anaz. haish. quiet. but i believe we r as strong. circumstances may change how we act n react. but d feeling is still there n staying rooted.

skul's starting on monday. n im kinda looking forward. not bcoz of anyone's presence. myb just bcoz im tired being at hm, watching d idiot not going to skul n screwing up his life. he's a major idiot.

anw, today was my last day being a relief teacher at marsiling pcf b101 education ctr at wdlds. hehe. it has been a fulfilling experience. who would take up a job tat requires u to start at 8am n fin at 11am n then go hm? but i did. haha. it's kinda pathetic though, making ur way down to wdlds for just 3 hours. but like ibu mentioned, take it like an exercise. n im done wif it.

im gonna miss d kids super so much. n they're my first bunch of kindergarten kids. let me recall names.

rui min n shu min. they're boy/gal twins. cool.
andy n owen. another pair of twins. super cool ryte.
hazirah n hazikah. another pair of twins. super duper cool.

i noe. haha. 7 days wif them. i cant really tell them apart though. but i have had extremely good gut feeling. so i survived. haha.

who else? malays.....

sabrina. emilya. ayu. zulaikha. mazlaini. hanisah. adam. amirin. saif.

d gals, especially, love to give me cards n letters. in 7 days, they made me an official karung guni lady.

n d rest.....

rachel. qi en. hui shi. sharon. terence. wei qiang. kar zer. yi cheng. leon.

awards.

irritating, blur, super lazy n sloppy - wilson. i noe. im not suppose to label kids but i cant help it. i talk to him n he stares into space. we read books in class n he dug his nose. n more things u dont wana noe. haha. but i guess he's harmless. he smiles a lot. d selenge kinda smiles.

communication breakdown - xing shan. china gal. so ya, i practised lots of hand signals n gestures throughout d days tat im wif her. haha. how fun. hor fun.

anw, being a reflective person, i've learnt something about myself n how to deal wif feelings. most of d time, i experienced d feeling of being disappointed by d people i love around me. anaz. my family. my frens. but i guess d feeling is a choice made by me. too high expectations n being too hopeful r d reasons n causes of me being disappointed n frustrated. so i guess i should give myself a break n lay back for 1 second in every minute. i cant rule d air. i just rule my air. my oxygen.

oh dearest lappy

2006-10-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

my lappy's down n i missed u.

wat?

2006-10-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

if u have a dream. wat would tat be?

life

2006-09-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

life has been so much harder since u left me for ns.
times have been so bad.
u made me cry.
u made me go crazy.

but at d end of d day,
u'll still be d one i come back to.
coz it's in u, i feel d strength.
my pillar of hope.
d one to wipe my tears away.
i feel secure in ur arms.

n i know u'll take care of me.

wee wee

2006-09-28T04:35:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep. AGAIN. it's 4.30 in d wee hours on thursday n i couldnt even shut my eyes. they were so used to resting later morning till afternoon. let them be. n let me be like tis. had a stupid arguement wif him. omg. help me get out of tis always-argue-about-stupid-tingy-esp-when-u-r-tired tingy. im sick of it. n it hurts a lot. such a communication breakdown. im always lonely during these holiday terms. lonely but i was decent enuff. n we always blew up d little time we had for chats. it sucked big time. n i hate it. i hate all tis.

i feel empty occasionally. im feeling it now. onli tis time i feel really empty deep deep down.

sleeping beauty, im not.

2006-09-27T03:48:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep again. as always. yesterday was my last day wif netty. tutoring her was a whole lot of fun. we clicked and shared the same frequency level of ality n interaction n these had made it easier to tutor her. gona miss her. though im super very nervous for her, taking her psle in a weeks' time. insya'allah. she has worked very hard n i know she can do it.

since puasa, i've been talking lesser wif az. he's always so tired. omg. i truly miss him. it made me feel so lifeless n weak everytime i think about him. n he's not a smart person to convince me tat. haha. but i understand d situation though. it has been 3 months. 3 MORE months till pop is nothing ryte. ryte guys? come on, support me.

anw, had a nitemare abt fan last nite. or should i mention morning? i hope it's not true at all awk. everyone's in ur family is fine ryte? wanted to kol or msg like i always do when i felt a twist in my heart. but tis time i tink tat i should give it a rest.

2006-09-21T15:04:00.000+08:00

im dead bored. n i missed him deadly.

huh?

2006-09-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

msn wif my ex-bestfren just now. u noe who. d one who argued wif azri n not so in good terms wif me. haha. ya, mr khaliff. anw, i changed my nick to a quote of love. if u love me, forgive me n never forget me. he nugded me n said, "i forgive u." wat d heck. so being me, sarcarstic n adventurous, i said, "so u love me?" he said, "i cant." i asked y. he replied,"becoz someone else love u n i dont intend to share it." haha. wat did he mean by tat sia. mepek.

gona catch my sleep. i neeed to.

2006-09-19T06:00:00.000+08:00

wats wrong wif me, again? cant seemed to sleep these days. even till now, my eyes opened wide. but my body's aching like crazy. gona pray subuh, then sleep straight after tat n tis. gona work later evening.

yesterday, gotta tok to my darling. we seemed so far yet so near. sometime, i felt so alone tat i forgot abt him. but tat doesnt mean i dont love him. love him to d bits n pieces. he's so wonderful n ryte n enuff for me. awk, i promise i'll treasure u sayang. i wont disappoint u anymore. i'll try.

im so proud of u for passing n getting first for ur i-forgot-wat-test-it-was. but im so proud of u sayang. i sayang u n rindu u many many much.

n awk, ape salah kite?
till im ask to pls not disturb u. bcoz u r confused? huh? i super dont understand. but wateva it is, i respect u n gona leave u alone. not gona bother u anymore. but wait, when did i bother u? okie. wateva. doesnt matter though. gona just pretend u've disappeared. im okie wif it.

meetings

2006-09-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

two days ago, ibu n bro n sis met him. n yesterday, my bro met hm. haha. life's coincidence.

tears baby

2006-09-16T05:04:00.000+08:00

couldnt sleep. anaz took me from workplace. we sat n talked till 11, then he went off. upon reaching hm, i got changed n on my lappy. ya, i went straight to yahoo games till i got a big huge headache. n my fingers sore so crazily. i couldnt sleep. bongkar my bro's rm n kidnapped his mp3. n i just laid back, hearing all d jiwangs. omg. i cried n cried n cried. shit.

awk, i knew i chose tt. but i intended to stay in ur life somehow. only even as a stranger. im sorie if i've caused u pain n hatrate. i didnt mean to confuse u though. mayb u hv a problem. i dono. y d fucking shit m i still thinking about u? i hate u so much.

and awk, kenape awk asyik nak sayang kite jer. u gave, give n will give me lotsa love. but i also want u to understand me. love n understand. awk, nape awk sayang kite sangat? im so confused n scared knowing tat u love me so damn much. i reli scared.

n kite. kenape kite nie emo sangat?! suke nah nangis. daydreaming nangis. tgk tv nangis. dengar lagu nangs. bingit ar!!!

yahoo games

2006-09-15T13:02:00.000+08:00

wat i headache. had been playing downloaded yahoo games since tis wee morning. omg.

azri called just now to tell me tat he passed gr8 for his napfa. good for him.

wif ma n nadt at civic

2006-09-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

im sitting at wdlds civic centre wif ma n nadt. just lepakking around. haha. n im using ma's lappy to do tis entry. hehe. awhile ago, ma mentioned her conversation wif nadt.she said she predicted tat she would be left alone coz her chn would be old enough and too bz to spend time wif her. she would be onli. nadt mentioned tat would not happen if me n az would give ma a grandson/daughter to keep her company. i kept quiet, blushing lightly. haha. cheeky gal.

2006-09-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

jenny, i super hate u to d max!

he blew me off into dreamland

2006-09-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday, he made me disappointed. but today, he just made me fly high up in the air.

dear god, pls dont let ever let me wake up w/o my ana by my side. should such a day were to come, i beg u to pls take me into ur arms while im asleep.

my love for u is one of the only thread tat binds me to this life. if it were to break, i reli pray tat my very fabric of life be burnt.

fan msged me just now. he were having his block leave. ya, we just msged. msg.

games

2006-08-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

yahoo! games. here i come. im bored. n u r just wat i need. weehee...

jenny sucks

2006-08-27T01:30:00.000+08:00

not gona say much except for: JENNY,u r super rude, old, ugly, and dont deserve my respect. so i tink tat, being a supervisor, u odd to go back to school and learn observational behaviour/human resourse management. OB_HRM (d module i just finished in skul). coz, seriously, u need some skills to upgrade tat ****ing attitude of urs.

ns sucks

2006-08-23T08:09:00.000+08:00

good morning darlink. i love u n i miss u. be over n done wif ns n come back to me asap. u noe im a adhd kid. i have super short attention span. im easily n overly distracted. im super duper moody. n im memang paling rimas w/o things to do. omg!

ns is taking away all my time wif u. n it's not fair. u've been paid n im not. hrm! haha.
still searching for a part time day job. but even wif tuition n ticketing are super tired enuff. though short hours, both are very intensive, giving people their fullest attention. haiz.

good to noe tat she is still wif him. i mean, if she reali noes him well, she wont leave him right. who will? d guy wif d kind gentle soul. unless it's fate.

d measure of love is when u love w/o measure. in life, there r very rare chances tat u'll meet d person who u love n loves u back. so when u have it, never let it go. d chances might never come ur way again.

i've let go of one true love. n it's not easy to get over.
n d love i have now, will be mine only.

cable

2006-08-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

yippeee. tadi saye jumpe sayang saye. kite gi sentosa naik cable car. he kept his promise. n tat made me super duper hepi. i noe tat he's super duper tired. just book out tis morning coz yesterday evening he went back to camp for some exercise. sampai bulu mata terbakar sey. kesian sayang aku. hehe. hero negare.

aku sayang dier. n i dont care.

booking out...

2006-08-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

today was fine. was working just now. lucky enough, d OLD jenny was on leave. or else i'll be so pissed off again to be working. d crowd at nite safari was super sardine. didnt usually work on sat but was asked to take over margeret's shift. so why not. anw, didnt meet azri today. did have a cliff yesterday nite n tis morning. was just not in d mood to tolerate people who wants to be selfish. so i decided to show d correpondent attitude. we made up in d evening. he apologised. it's not tat i wana make him feel bad but he needs to realise when he's being selfish. i love him n i know he knows it.

met up wif nadt tis afternoon. tak dapat abangnye, adeknye pon jadilah. being wif her made me realise and compare my teenage life wif d teens nowdays. im super backdated. and seriously, im super simple. even programs in my lappy, i didnt even noe exist, she used to mix songs and pictures. haha. k, im simple and selenge.

azri booking out tomoro. we'll probably meet up. nak step merajok lagi lah. best plak. haha.

gona download super many yahoo games to fill my time. better ryte. rather than finding a replacement lover.

i've lived for 19 years. at least, i've found two people that makes me discover love. n i tink i dont need another love in my life. d present love n d past love has made be more than contented to be living n appreciating every single moment of life. i thanked d greatest to have given me d opportunity to make me feel tis way.

shut up

2006-08-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

jenny! shut up & shut up! seriously, she's super irritating and rude. she shouts, she never let people explain themselves, she dont respect others' opinion and private space. wateva it is, she made me super pissed off tnite and she deserved my slap most. PIAAANG! not gona let her ruin my weekend. gona have to see her old, haggered face tomoro though. shit!

awk, i dono why but somehow deep inside, im feeling very lonely. lonely and disappointed.

and awk, i wonder if u r okie.

exam's over. my life's not.

2006-08-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

exam's over. for good. one more semester and im done. and i want it to pass by me so fast. coz im lonely. let me have a fairytale dream. i wana graduate, get engaged, work, married wif d fated love one, have two boys and two gals. one of each which i have had a name for. qristina natasha and danial iskandar. anw, im lazy. can i get my husband to work all tat? but i can promise tat i will take good care of d house and d kids.

azri's booking out tnite. but i doubt tat we're gona meet later. im working sey. bluek. i miss him so missingly. last sat, we had our say. i was so pissed off wif him. becoz of movies? lame. super lame. but when he counter attack me regarding d reply msg i got from ana. oh boi. he cried. i noe. i should have deleted tat. he should not noe tat i still hold on to tat love of d past. it was just my passion and past time. nothing else to do but to wonder and ponder and daydream about d past. but we clarified. as usual. i guess when d hearts and logic talk, things will be good.

i wana say so much but wat? life's boring. read her blog. they gona break up? awk, hold on. u'll find ur fated love. i promise. Allah Maha Adil.

HARD CANDY. HARD TIME. HARD HAPPINESS.

2006-08-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

finally, i managed to steal wireless. yipee...
so much have happened. didnt manage to update. budget gal.

last wed, national day, fan msg me. surprise though. but it was a pleasant one. just tanye khabar then tats it. tat made me beamed somehow. last sat's fireworks was super nice. n super duper crowded sey. me, azri, masy, zul, tzul.
on sunday, otw to work, i met an old fren. he took my number n he called me tat nite. everything was decent though. he was just someone i ever gotta noe n went out wif during my lower sec skul years.

monday-thursday was a straight gf day for me. wif ida. we went out to eat at fig & olive somewhere at bencoolen road there. it was nice, gr8 ambience, and most importantly, student rate. whahaha. gr8 time spent out. tues, we went out, wif gr8 intention to study for our ob-hrm exam for friday. but we end up watching HARD CANDY which was super disgusting. but it was kinda smooth wif a twist. then, we did hang out at mc cafe n study okie. at least, we studied! n just wana make a comment. d sandwiches are super salty sey. haiyo! at least, now i noe. wed n today, we hang out at my place. yeah! we bake shepherd's pie just now. knowledge, coutesy by miss liyana. wehee...

yesterday, we bongkar my stuff. pictures, letters from d past. we sang sad songs. recall d ups n downs. super cute. how i wish everyday was a friendship day.

azri's been so bz wif ns. i felt super so alone. sometimes we didnt get to talk at all. sometimes, i dont feel like talking to him at all. still, i miss him super so much. only god noes how much.

d hepi days

2006-08-08T07:46:00.000+08:00

d jog i just had was gr8. it felt gr8 to be wif oneself n cooling down d soul.
n here for once, im up from bed n fresh to start d day.

d meet up wif my galfrens last thursday was good. not gr8 oz aisyah couldnt make it. but it was good enough. we had dinner at cck park. it was good food. n ya, big money. then we went to craz times again, taking pixs. it was fun lah. seriously, it's one of d rare occasion i let lose myself. not tat it was exciting or wat. just tat such rare chances of having a reunion had made my heart warm.

n yesterday, i managed to grab some nite moments having supper wif mas at our usual hangout place, sunshine. we did d routine, ate mutton steak and sat and chatted.

anw, there's some part of yesterday which was ****ing pissed off. msging wif mentor khaliff. seriously, im so glad azri told him off coz he's merepek.

listen up!
u r IMMATURE, IRRITATING, DUMB, n A WASTE OF TIME.

so ****off!

shut ur BIG mouth up n GROW UP!
call urself a fren? some fren u r.

things have been going good around me.
im happy wif azri.
hannah's happy wif alfian.
yani's happy wif alfitrat.
aisyah's happy wif i-dono-wat's-his-name.
ida's happy (i tink n hope so) getting to noe some people.
mas's definately happy wif dearest rifaie.

n awk, i hope u r happy wif ur current galfriend. u deserve every single happines there is in this world. n dear gal, whoever u r, i hope u could make fan happy coz he deserve it n i noe he loves u very much. never take advantage of his kindness n patience. treasure him as much as u can.

i guess i wanted to forget about u.
but i forgot.

i wish...

2006-08-07T12:41:00.000+08:00

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

Our true identity is to love without fear and insecurity. Our higher potential finds us when we set our course in that direction. The power of love and compassion transforms insecurity.