Friday, January 13, 2006
a week after. told u tat i dont touch this electronic thingy often. but ya, im here. lots of things happened. monday, i hanged out wif ladyelle and her 2 guy friends. elfie, my former schoolmate and ishmail (think so tats how it's spelled). aniwae, it was gr8. like, when was the last time i hanged out. being ech-ians, surrounded by girls, girls and endless girlfriends, it's a nice change. haha. but wateva, my bf is still the best and my priority. the best around for me, for now. niwae, i went home late. really late tat day. 1am in the morning. anaz was really super mad at me. silence for tat day and the day after, hari raya haji. so, wat? being good always doesnt mean i cant enjoy sometimes. n my form of enjoyment was just shopping and seating at suntec starbucks till 11.30pm. missed the last bus to cck. walked n walked to bus stop tat has n3.
like said, tues was also silent treatment from him. but why do i get tat kinda treatment, but when it's his turn, rilex jer. i guess i've never done it b4, tats y he freaked out. so i just laid back till he cooled down. nothing much tat day. as usual on festive days, i went over my grandparents' hses and bla3. eat eat eat.
wed came. skul was boring. morning attachment at childcare ctr was relatively orite. children was cuties as usual. but didnt managed to carry out my lesson. bcoz, i haven prepared them. haha. me, the last min gal. met fan for lunch in skul. not long, coz ladyelle joined us later. then it was time for 3pm BORING DPIP lect. adding to tat tension anaz situation, he's line was cut temporary. so, ya. double silence. i miss him though. a lot. but ya, ego. super super ego. after skul, went to tekka to eat thosai wif tutti. ya, me n nin went all the way there for THOSAI. komalas. we have been craving for it for days. weeks, months. so finally, ya, we were really full tat we could barely walked.
thurs was yesterday. daytime was another routine activity. lect, tutorials. then, i went home. anaz wana meet up at suntec but i dont feel like meeting him so i went home straight. such mood i had. he was disappointed coz i knew he really wanted to meet me. but i just wanted him to feel tat lost of connection coz he has been taking advantage of my presence lately. btw, he said he wanted to pass him something, but didnt wana tell me. i met fan at pondok under my block. he wanted to have someone to listen. so ya, there i was. he was smoking so heavily yet complaining he felt tired always. niwae, im tired of nagging. the role of victim has been switch over to another smoker. haha. anaz. at night, we talked like for hours till 3+ am. ya. we argued here and there but it was a nice sweet ending of the occasional conversation.
tdy, i was all pinky. wif my pink skirt and my pink sweater. is it so hard to accept tat some people look extremely good in pink. i mean, in anything they wear. wats up wif the comments. haha. but, still a pure white heart outshines the outer beauty. believe it or be ignorant. wont be meeting anaz today or the coming days, i think. we'll see how.
tired. tata.
noted@
6:35 PM
free me to fly on my own
