Wednesday, December 27, 2006
suddenly, once again, i feel lost. so lost.
lost interest in skul. since aceh n since fee is dued n i bo $ to pay up.
n also, somehow love is different once again.
i noe i love him. so much n much more. but somehow it's just different. he made it different.
Ya Allah. i deserve wat i get n how i feel ryte deep down there. for not being able to carry out wat u entrust me in. im so sorry. sorry for myself. but im just dumb.
but still, i wouldnt let him go. til d moment i feel he's not meant for me, then i'll fly. for now, i feel he is. for me.
as fajar read when reading my palm, once upon a time, i had a true love. we made our path through n we had plans. but we decided to let each other go coz we noe we r not meant for each other. d true love i have now is d one tats fated for me. hopefully it's anaz. i wana spend d rest of my life wif him. coz i noe he'll take care of me n will love me always.
n as for d missed love, u'll always b in me. u may forget me, but i will never forget u. someone who reads me well enuf to once upon a time love me. thanx. wherever u may b, take care.
u made me wat i m today. i appreciate tat. alhamdulilah.
noted@
12:47 AM
free me to fly on my own
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
things r getting better.
n i should always believe tat at d end of d rainy day is d existence of a rainbow.
god is always there for u. nawaitu. n insya'allah, HE will hear ur prayers.
noted@
9:27 PM
free me to fly on my own
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
i wish i could tell u how much i love u.
i stand strong coz i felt u in me. u r my pillar of strength.
i cry coz i noe u will be there to wipe my tears.
i dare swim in d open ocean coz i noe u will never let me drown.
i stay true to u coz i noe there's no one else i wana be wif.
u r d one for me. n i trust tat u r true to me.
now, im lost for words.
wat m i reli to u?
m i d ryte one for u?
i love u so much but y is my heart suffering n breaking into pieces?
ive chosen u n ive not looked back. but y r u playing a trick on me?
noted@
1:05 AM
free me to fly on my own
back here in spore. but dnt feel like coming back to my life though. d path of my love life is getting tougher n i dont tink im left wif much strength and courage to continue hoping. hope is just hope. dono wat i should do. like always, in everything, im a lost soul. n d person i hope could keep me together is doing exactly d ting to break me apart. cant take it animore. whr r u? my pillar of hope n strength has turned into d strong tsunami wave tt is keeping me barely alive.
i'll b a dead soul soon.
noted@
12:47 AM
free me to fly on my own
im back here from aceh. iskandar wrote tis for me.
SENyUM–MU
Ketika itu tubuhku yang penuh keringat..
Terluka dan terjepit dalam tindakan yang dianggap terlalu..
Ingin menjadi seorang pahlawan…
Yang mungkin suatu saat kesiangan…
Namun begitu,
keringatku…
lukaku…
dan perihku..
telah terbalut oleh sebuah senyuman..
Uhhg.. sungguh sial…
Ternyata dia sudah punya PACAR?
Kini aku disini, Lagi
Sendiri..
Menanti senyuman itu kembali..
Untuk
Keringkan peluhku…
Lukaku..
Dan perihku..
Tapi semuanya mungkin hanya sebuah harapan
Yang tak kan jadi kenyataan..
Karena mungkin jalanku..
Ataupun aku yang terlalu arogan..
Karena tak berani katakan…
Kalau senyum-MU
Mampu
Keringkan peluhku…
Lukaku..
Dan perihku..
Yahh.. sudahlah..
Namanya hidup.
Tak perlu direncanakan…
Karena selalu gagal..
Paling tidak puisi ini buat kamu tahu
Dan mengerti..
Senyummu sangat berarti…
Bagi HIDUPKU..
Buat Liyana..
Dari LOSER….di Meulaboh!!!
noted@
12:45 AM
free me to fly on my own
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku
Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu
Darimu...
Kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku...
Kau lah cinta sejati
Ooh...
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
Ooh...
noted@
12:05 PM
free me to fly on my own
yesterday, was a gr8 saturday.
i attended the mentor's tea party at rchid country ckub. grand! n guess wat? i was awarded the 'BEST BIG SISTER'. then kak fiza brought me to meet up with cikgu naha (zaima's teacher) and he thanked me n all. he said zaima had improved and bla bla bla... omg! i was so touched ar. n i dont tink i deserve such appreciation coz i just did wat i have done for the sake of humility n the nature of having fun n satisfaction. hehe. anw, they also interviewed me up. n then, i got some msgs at nite saying tat i appeared on tv berita 8pm. so paisey la... haha... my malay da lah berterabur...
anw, me n ab won the 'big sis & bro' award but too bad, he didnt attend yesterday's fuction as he had to attend a job training. boo hoo...
after tat, i hang out wif ema n basithah(my newly made fren. she got the award for 'best big sister award too. but mine was for secondary mentee. hers was for primary mentee) we sat ard at northpoint mc n chatted away. fun. then we left n i met up wif anaz n we headed to vivo city to meet my family. i had a wonderful time.
now, im packing my stuff for my aceh trip. haiz... so boring.... zzzzz....
noted@
11:38 AM
free me to fly on my own
