Sunday, November 26, 2006

yesterday was gr8. 9:56 was smooth n terrifying.
noted@8:37 AM
free me to fly on my own

Thursday, November 16, 2006

i noe ive always been a gd fren to others. but sometimes, i feel tat people tend to overlook d values and beliefs about wat true friendship really means. is friendship just a drop by stations where u look for them when u have a problem or something crops up? hMm...i dono. i dont see it tat way but sometimes i feel lousy about being in such friendship. haha. ive always being so caring n concern about me. but all they do think is about themselves. but i guess n i noe not everyone's like tat..

awn, friendship reminded me of my pri sch crush. ive got tis crush at tis guy for a couple of years. pri 2-4 i tink. haha. n then tat day we went out jalan raye together n we kinda keep in touch. tat nite he told me tat he kinda like me but too bad, coz im already attached. haha. kinda cute tinking abt him. luckily we were comfortable abt it n we talked a couple of times. haha. but now he selenge la. haha.

nra makes me puke somehow. i dono y. d frenship seems disappearing. n guess wat. i dont really care n bother animore. she makes me tink tat way.

life has not yet ending. i noe i can still count on some true friends, ups n downs. i noe its not tat we dont care about d friendship. but we r just too bz. deep down, we still believe in tat true friendship we share.
noted@6:40 PM
free me to fly on my own

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

i noe i love him. but just wana be away from him. maybe im being selfish n unreasonable. but i cant please ppl all d time. i need my needs. i need to be alone.

ystrday, i had a nitemare. a never-ending nitemare about d bermuda triangle love story. how funny d 3 of us were in d nitemare. n how funny how i was being twisted in d storyline. maybe it's a sign. maybe it's just testing n challenging my emotional status. how terrifying n adventurous. like d csi.

skul ended early today n i had no other committments. i didnt wana go home. i went to meet up eliz. she brought her gal along, nandini. how cute n smart d little gal was. i went over to her house for a chit chat. after tat, i met up wif ab who kept me company for a while, knowing tat i didnt wana go hm tat early. he was a good companionship. i felt comfortable wif him n had treated him like an older brother. ive always wanted a brother.
noted@10:12 PM
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lost of words
clashed of minds
robbed of soul

i just wana distant myself away from u.
at least for a while.
noted@12:38 AM
free me to fly on my own

Sunday, November 12, 2006

went out early morning to meet up abdillah n nora. taking d same train to mdis for mentor's training. luckily, ab gave me a wake up kol. if not, i would definately be late. haha. talking about dearest khaliff on the way. wats new ryte. haha. anw, d course was boring. haha. klah, i guess i was very sleepy la. anw, made some new frens. SUFIAH. her face resembles farhanah sey. haha. btol. ish. haha. nice talking to her. and also hajar. haha. we gossiped about khaliff during d interactive discussion. gd opportunity wat. kate strength rapport n bond. hhahaha. then, actually i was supposed to follow thm jalan raye but i didnt coz not feeling well. in d late evening, they drop by my house. khaliff, saadah, aqilah, rafidah. yup. him. n it was hilarious la. he clicked wif my parents n bro n sis very well. haha.. mepek ar dier. mentioning bakal mertua. bluek...! haha then we headed to hajar's house. okie ar. i clicked wif d gals really well. they commented tat they were very surprised tat i was very friendly n easy-going. again, like others, they tot i was d sombong type. haha. yup. dont judge me.

anaz called me up just now. didnt wana jumpe la coz tired. but then at wdlds, dier meet rab jap. ape sey... haish... dono wat to say abt how i feel... 7 hari tak jumpe, tapi orng lain dapat jumpe lepak2 ngan dier dulu... aku tau la rab blood aku... but still... alah... small hundred pieces...
noted@11:59 PM
free me to fly on my own

tadi jalan raye ngan budak2 svps...best giler...naik cars...
noted@12:44 AM
free me to fly on my own

Friday, November 10, 2006

sometimes, it sucks having such unfocused and slack and dont-care groupmates. it's ****ing irritating. n i predicted tat projects will suck as well. we r close friends and i noe of their potential and abilities but they tend to overlook stuff and dont really care much. wats d point of having a positive and enthusiastic attitude when u have such lousy groupmates who ignores how u exactly feel. i noe their needs. they need to smoke. but cannot later izzit. more inportant that projects? cant die or wat? not tat i love doing projects. i really dont. but i love getting started and get over it and done wif asap. then i can enjoy doing wat i wana do. mama seemed so focused when she's wif me. she even became more motivated than me myself. it was just tis morning tat she showed tat positive attitude to me but then, after meeting nin n yana, she got distracted. haha. expected. i shouldnt have been to hopeful. they will be they. not tat we have a problem wif each other. in fact, we glued really well and i guess tats y we survived through all these 3 years, doing last min projects together and 'individual' parts of d projects. so much for a mproper group discussion. im tired. of their attitude. i have my life too.
noted@1:30 PM
free me to fly on my own

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

firstly, i wana ban air-corn. it gives me such a bad headache.aching like anything. killing me. n cramping my braincells.


in d skul library doing nothing. having break till 2.30pm. so bored. d rest went out to eat. i didnt go along coz i wasnt in d mood. missing anaz who's still in brunei, during his training. life has been moderately good so far. just had lunch wif ida just now. i love hanging out wif my galfrens, catching out old times. i've always believe truly in d importance of friendship.

projects have been coming non stop. but since i have such a slack n unmotivated group members, i cant do much but to slack too. haha. i noe. merely reasons.

im bored. n im cranky. n when i m being cranky, i utter rubbish.
noted@1:21 PM
free me to fly on my own

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

he went brunei. gona miss him.

he's gone. dono where. should i care?
noted@12:21 AM
free me to fly on my own