Sunday, May 21, 2006
today's sunday. 21 May 2006. n tonite's almost tomoro. these are a year's old.
can i just do this? i simply love doing it. i hated how things had happened. it did, somehow. but it
just made me feel strong thinking of them. memories.
y r u so nice to me awk? awk, u helped me across some of d darkest points of my lyf. i lacked the capacity to repay u but i'll do d best i can.
awk, i need to tell u this. im scared awk. scared bcoz u r suppressing ur feelings about me. scared tat it might just shrink away. scared tat u wont love me anymore.
just ignore my feelings awk. i dun wanna lose d friendship coz i treasure it. u told me to stop but i chose not to. im a guy awk, and naturally i want d best. sori awk.
there was a time my heart died. it was cold and hard. i strayed. i enjoyed being it, but it wasnt until one day i looked into the mirror and hated wat i saw. i dun wanna be tat no more.
do u hate me? if u want me to, u haf gotta try harder. much2 and way2 harder. after all tat u haf taught me, tyms u haf spent wif me and wat u haf given me, how can i hate u? i couldnt possibly do tat. i cant and i wont.
u wanna noe y i lyk being ard u? we understand each other and im not afraid to be myself bcoz u gave me ample space for me to put aside my facade n let out d real me. thx.
thx awk. in d past, i once owned ur heart. n it was d best tym of my lyf. i noe u understand y. y didnt i meet u earlier? y??? i got something gd n i lost it.
noted@
11:03 PM
free me to fly on my own
